I thought I walked the road alone.
I thought I'd made it on my own.
Looking back I see the strength
That took me to any length
Once I was willing to let go.

I make decisions and I know
I'm on the path and I must go
Moving forward at my pace
Life is flooded with your grace
Now everything just seems to flow.

There's a world out there for me
There are meanings I can't see
I believe that all is well
And have faith that time will tell.
I trust that all is meant to be.

I don't like everything you do,
But I accept and see it through.
I trust you see the bigger frame
So I go on and play the game.
Now my doubts are far and few.

There's a world out there for me
There are meanings I can't see
I believe that all is well
And have faith that time will tell.
I trust that all is meant to be.

If you're breaking the habit of taking the easy way out,
Well, dear, you've got a long way to go.
Time and again you'll be tempted to sway
Believe me, that's one thing I know.

Caught in the wheels of circumstance, you completely forgot how to dance.
Your limbs are rusted, your head is a-tilt. You're a flower, not ready to wilt.

As your mind opens up and thoughts become clear
You scrape up some courage and start to feel strong
Slowly you begin to let go of the fear
Just for a moment, nothing can go wrong.

Every day's a new day, a new chance to begin
You wake up, start over, and should your will be thin
Then remember where you came from and where you've been
That can help you be strong and not sink in.

The easy way out was the hardest path to take
but you were blind to the truth at the time
Forgive yourself, move on and have faith
To change direction is the lesser crime.

Caught in the wheels of circumstance, you completely forgot how to dance.
Your limbs are rusted, your head is a-tilt. You're a flower, not ready to wilt.

Learning to talk, I've done it twice.
Once to be honest, once to be nice.
Now I can feel where I'm at, where you are
Now it is real, whether near or so far.
The touch of a finger, the look in your eyes
A mutual exchange and we realize.

The warmth from your hand shields the light in my heart
We connect, protect and each know our part.
To put into words, I must understand
What it is that I feel, want, need and demand.
To hear what you say, I need more than two ears,
but a heart, eyes and mind to discern hopes and fears.

The skies of your mind, they are open to me,
the sun's light of your thoughts, it shines on me
I am I, you are you, together we're we,
We feel, listen, question, and then we can see.

Is it one picture, or a mixture of two
As long as we meet and agree on what's true
That image suffices and settles the deal
We examine, discover and begin to heal.
Take time to reflect, let clear the murky waters
of particles of fear experience taught us.

Open your mind to confidence and courage
The bouts of fate will cease to discourage
You're part of the process, take steps one by one,
You stay in motion, as each task is done.

Learning to talk…

Milestones along the path
Like pebbles in my shoe
Moments we'd have shared remind me
Of how much I miss you.

Milestones without you
As I wander on my way
Face the moments on my own
And I make it through each day.

It doesn't feel right
Though you're in my heart
Life tells me to move on
And make a new start.

Milestones without you
As I wander on my way
Face the moments on my own
And I make it through each day.

Milestones without you
unwinding one by one
each one takes you further away
no matter where I run.

Milestones without you
As I wander on my way
Face the moments on my own
And I make it through each day.
And I make it through each day.

It' hard to believe you could've been so wrong
but you were and now you have to be so strong.
Look all around you, what can you see?
Countless faces who've been crying bitterly.

But it doesn't really matter how it might've been
you're where you are and there is no return.
you're where you are and there is no return.

Some gave away their love, some lost it in a fight.
Struggled to the last and then surrendered to the light.
When it's more than you can take, seems pointless to go on,
depths beyond your own emerge and shame makes you strong.

Then it doesn't really matter how it might have been,
you're where you are and there is no return.
you're where you are and there is no return.

Open up your eyes. See what you can do
More than you imagined, and to yourself be true.
Trust in life. Let it flow through you
Be there and take part and let it's glory ensue.

Then it doesn't really matter how it might have been,
cause you're where you are, and there is no return.
No it doesn't really matter how it might have been,
cause you're where you are and there is no return.

If, if you, if you try to pretend
Do not heed the signs which extend
Pretend it's not even going on
You miss the full situation.

Who can understand the place they land
From a stupor I'm awaking, inside and out I'm shaking
Inside and out I'm shaking.

Words in black print
yellow paper on the wall,
yet still I pretended,
did not heed the call.
Kept on pretending
there was nothing at all.
Nothing, just a whim
And she was living my dream,

I in her shadow. It didn't matter.
And all I really wanted, was to be like her.
To be like her. To be like her.

If, if you, if you try to pretend
Do not heed the signs which extend
Pretend it's not even going on
You miss the full situation.

Who can understand the place they land
From a stupor I'm awaking, inside and out I'm shaking
Inside and out I'm shaking.

If you wonder why I'm lying
why I've long since stopped trying
then dry your eyes, no more crying
and see that I've paid my dues.

You once fell in love with me
but the real me you didn't see.
I was too weak,
I changed to satisfy thee
blind to what I would lose.


Love is when you're true to both:
the one you love and you yourself.
If someone thinks you'll improve with age
then you must let thim go.
They're only building a subtle cage
and want you to be just so.

Won't look for the reason why you couldn't be strong.
See the signs of the season that brought you this far along.
Life is here for the taking whenever you are ready
Breathe deep in and out, relax and be steady.

I was crawling through the desert
surviving on well-dosed drops.
Then you shower me with kindness,
for a moment, the anguish stops.

Ever drawn to you like a magnet,
You're an oasis for my soul.
Every time I'm near you
there's a sense of being whole.

Things I'd like to tell you,
but I'm standing on my head.
Bending over backwards,
while my heart is full of dread.

Ever drawn to you like a magnet,
You're an oasis for my soul.
Every time I'm near you
there's a sense of being whole.

Has there been so little kindness,
that the pull would be so strong.
I can't believe I've done without
for what is surely far too long.

Ever drawn to you like a magnet,
You're an oasis for my soul.
Every time I'm near you
there's a sense of being whole.

Cutting through clutter is harder than butter
Even when it's frozen.
This is a trying destiny
The path that I have chosen.

I'm not on the road again, I'm on the phone again, To avoid this
impending sense of doom
I can't go out, I have to stay in
I have to face this cluttered room.

I'm at loose ends, I call my friends
For a dose of inspiration.
They build me up and help assuage
The creeping desperation.

Clearing up a few square feet
A solid floor I soon will greet.
Clearing up a space for fun
Take an hour, get something done.

It's like a fairytale or game
Working through the mess
Confusion is no mere illusion,
but a massive source of stress.

Using the things I bought for someday,
Because I'm not allowed to shop.
Until I've cleaned my room all up
Further collecting has got to stop.

I want a boyfriend,
But I have to clean my room.
I want to go to the movies,
But I have to clean my room.
I want to paint a picture,
But I have to clean my room.
I'll never have any fun again
If I don't do it soon.

I can't go out and play until I've cleaned my room today.
I can't go out and play until I've cleaned my room today.

I poured out my story rather than say how I felt
It all came too fast, this surprise that life dealt.
The next day I was shocked, felt lost and dismayed
Wondered yet again at the role I had played.

Old patterns rise up when you think they're gone.
They catch you and tease you and still carry on.
But only if you let them, only if you submit.
Today I'm awake and had enough of it.
Delete those stale phrases and clear the slate.
As dignity shines, I pursue my fate.

It seemed as if there was so much to say
And now you don't have the time of day.
Butterflies flew away to leave mere scorn.
Anger rose up and the illusion was torn.

Old patterns rise up when you think they're gone.
They catch you and tease you and still carry on.
But only if you let them, only if you submit.
Today I'm awake and had enough of it.
Delete those stale phrases and clear the slate.
As dignity shines, I pursue my fate.

I won't wonder what I did wrong, nor do I regret.
There are more important things I choose not to forget.
My feet are grounded, my future shines.
I see through the joke of your well-used lines.

One more trying lesson in life as I walk along
One more little verse in this ongoing song.
Thanks for the gift, I'll make the most of it.
I'm still on my way as things shift.

Old patterns rise up when you think they're gone
They catch you and tease you and still carry on.
But only if you let them, only if you submit
Today I'm awake and had enough of it.
Delete those stale phrases and clear the slate.
As dignity shines, I pursue my fate.

Do I expect too much when I hunger for your touch
At the same time want you to let me go.
There is no right or wrong. It's more about where you belong
And with whom you want to be.
Should I go or should I stay? Should I hang around and play?
No fitting answer have I found.
So I'm still hanging around

Do I expect too much when I hunger for your touch
But ask you to make no claims on me.
Can I love you as I please, without you falling to your knees
And asking me to promise what I can't.
I mean I can, but in the end, it will all depend
On whether or not it's meant to be.
Whether or not it's meant to be.

Do I expect too much when I hunger for your touch
At the same time want you to let me go.
There is no right or wrong. It's more about where you belong
And with whom you want to be.
Should I go or should I stay? Should I hang around and play?
No fitting answer have I found.
So I'm still hanging around.

There's got to be more than bemoaning the past
Wondering how long depression will last.
It's a safe place to stay and complain
Rather than set out for foreign terrain.
But there's also no gain if you can't let go,
Can't leave your umbrella and go out in the rain.

Days slip through my fingers keep on staring at the wall
Letters to write, places to go but I can't move at all
I'm wired from the strain on my brain
Hands remain still and I'm going insane
And you've got some gall. When you tell me it's a figment
Of my imagination and there's nothing at all.

Wander around aimlessly no place I want to go
The traffic light decides for me, direction it will show.
A smile for the world and a glare at my reflection
Crumbling inside beneath the weight of this deception.
Fill me up to numb me out 'til I can't take no more
Spew it out, stumble back and roll onto the floor.

Gazing at the world so cruel I don't like what I see
Feeling overwhelmed by the negativity.
The trenchcoat army marches on so sure of its direction
A boy lay on the sidewalk, side-swiped by a truck
It's the question, do you stop and help
Or do you keep on going leave it up to someone else
Looks like he's out of luck.

Sadness, loneliness, coldness penetrate the air
Sometimes it's hard to care.

Awoke to the illusion of a bright sunny morn'
To realize it's afternoon now lay here so forlorn.
Chose this hell and live it well, miserable model prisoner
With the keys in my pocket or held before my hungry eyes
Grasp for positivity on the edge of self-destruction.

Tired and exhausted from trying to play the game
Returning to the dreamy world from which I once came
Just don't like your reality, though I sure did try
It hurts too much to stay and try to understand why.

If you want to keep me
And have my body and my heart remain true.
There are a few little wishes.
Here's what I'd like you to do.

I want you to worship
The ground that I walk on.
Treat me like my heart is made of porcelain,
but make love to me like I'm not.

I don't want all that money can buy
You don't even need to bring me flowers.
Just be there when I need you,
and wash my back in the shower.
The laundry basked may be overflowing.
The car is looking pretty dirty, too.
The living room may need a paint job,
but there are more important things for you to do.

Just worship the ground I walk on.
Treat me like my heart is made of porcelain.
But when you make love to me,
please remember that I'm not.

Tell me every morning that you love me.
Hug me, kiss me, hold me really tight.
Then when the day is over,
do it all again every night.
If you can grant these simple wishes,
you'll satisfy most of my desire.
And I know I can love you just as well,
to the bottom of your soul I so admire.

Just worship the ground I walk on.
Treat me like my heart is made of porcelain.
But when you make love to me,
please remember that I'm not.

Burning the bridges that keep bringing back the past
Digging up old moments that were never meant to last.
Trouble in the present, turn to words of long ago
Now you pose the question, but don't really need to know.

Put the past behind you, there's a reason to forget
Bringing it all back as if then wasn't enough
You plunge into resentments and memories of
Anger, disappointment and all kinds of nasty stuff.

So your father left home when you were just a kid.
And your mother praised you regardless of what you did.
Yet she kicked you out in a very loving way.
Now looking back, what you needed was to stay.

Proof in the pages, as if feelings aren't enough
Trust and intuition waned, as you learned to be tough.
Put it down on paper to explain the mess you've made,
All the changes needed - of which you are so afraid.

Getting rid of all the junk that's clogging up my space
Less is more and more or less may help adjust the pace
Should read this, have that and god knows what else I haven't done
By the way, when is it going to be fun??

Not that I expect it, but it would be kind of nice.
I've paid my dues, so tell me, what's the chance I get a slice?
No more painful memories on shelves collecting dust,
Just a silver dollar to remind me: in God we trust.

So your father left home when you were just a kid.
And your mother praised you regardless of what you did.
Yet she kicked you out in a very loving way.
Don't you look back, or you'll think you should have stayed.

Burning the proof and reminders. The path to the past is closed.
Tryin' to get more centered and my head cleared by and by.
Forgive and forget and don't ask why…

Your father left home when you were just a kid.
And your mother praised you regardless of what you did.
Yet she kicked you out in a very loving way.
If you look back, you might think you should've stayed.
But then, you know, you wouldn't be where you are today.

How would it look if I opened up the door
Still in my pyjamas and my bare feet on the floor?
Well the doorbell rang so I threw on pants & shirt
It was the chimney sweep asking if the chimney still works.

How would it look if I had footprints on my clothes
from two little feet whose hands were trying to grab my nose.
How would it look if I had ice cream in my hair
Well to tell you the truth, I don't really care.

Well it just might be that I look a mess
I do what I can and I can't worry about the rest.
So don't pick on me and I won't bother you
and together we can make it the whole day through.

I was up all night cause my daughter couldn't breathe
and my son was having nightmares so I just couldn't leave.
Right now I'm pretty wasted and my head is pretty wired
I didn't get much sleep and I'm feeling pretty tired.

I'm here in this city raising them alone
My social life is run on the telephone.
What I wouldn't give for a dear little granny
Or to be able to afford a reliable nanny.

Well it just might be that I look a mess
I do what I can and I can't worry about the rest.
So don't pick on me and I won't bother you
and together we can make it the whole day through.

I'm doing my best to teach with love what's right or wrong
And I must admit sometimes I have to be so strong.
I try to practice what I preach, not as easy as it sounds
but I do what I can and hope to spread some love around.

How would you feel if I put you down
If I gave you no respect or just a nasty little frown?
How would you feel if I picked a fight?
If you ask me I'd say something really isn't right.

Well it just might be that I look a mess
I do what I can and I can't worry about the rest.
So don't pick on me and I won't bother you
and together we can make it the whole day through.

Dreams are the wings that help you go on
Carry you to places you suspected were gone.
A new reality that others soon will see
Through the expression of your integrity.

It all seemed so bright, then a cloud came my way.
Fog, snow and roaring wind, swirling leaves in disarray.
Need to walk through the cold.
The biting winds caress my face,
brushing over me like invisible lace.
A tangible sting of sadness,
cutting through the mundane madness
can help me feel again.

Dreams are the wings that help you go on
Carry you to places you suspected were gone.
A new reality that others soon will see
Through the expression of your integrity.

Today I'll take a step on a path I've never seen
reminds me of a place that once appeared in a dream.
An image of the life we'd all like to share
Desires are so different, and we struggle to get there.
A thousand tiny steps will bring the change we need
Come a little closer. In the middle we shall meet.

Dreams are the wings.

When I think about all the answers I had
to questions not quite thought through
And I think about the twisted pathways
that couldn't help but bring me to you.
Then I remember the different moments
that went from ecstasy to wanting to leave
And even now there are occasions
when I simply cannot believe
That I still look forward to seeing you
at the end of a trying day.
In your presence a settling comfort,
even though you may have nothing to say.

That easy familiar way you listen
Your knowing smile, should my eyes start to glisten
Your silent admiration I was blind to,
Your support for whatever I've a mind to.

When I think about all the years gone by
and everything we've been through,
not that we did it all together,
nor was there sunshine and the sky always blue.
We had a time of being in love,
and a time when the feeling was not
So strong that I chose to stay with you,
though I did and we talked a lot.
It's gone from a practical arrangement
to benefit our precious kids,
To become something more of a romance,
though we're both past fortyish.

Well it just might be that I look a mess
I do what I can and I can't worry about the rest.
So don't pick on me and I won't bother you
and together we can make it the whole day through.

When I think about all the years to come,
with their share of good times and doubt,
Please forgive me in advance for the odd moments
when I lose it and would rather sit and pout.
I don't know where we'll go from here,
but I like to see the long path unwind.
The only thing I know about the future is,
that together we leave the past behind.

Would you love me one more time, could you love me one more time.
One more time, that's all I ask, is that such a difficult task?
One more time, one more time.

Destiny once sent you to me,
At the time you didn't recognize our compatibility.
Now it's too late for you to profess
Feelings which now would mean to regress.
That's not what I want, though I must confess
It alleviates my youthfull distress. Distress.

Could you kiss me one more time? Could you miss me one more time?
Could you be mine, just for one day, then it's all over, there's no more to say.
Just one day, that's all I ask, is that such a difficult task?
Just one day, just one day.

The bitterness sticks to my fingers
The ache in my memory lingers
Sometimes we take one too many sips
And the words pour out, lashing like whips.
One lets it all out, and one takes it in
They break up and make up and start once again. Again.

Could you kiss me one more time? Could you miss me one more time?
Could you be mine, just for one day, then it's all over, there's no more to say.
Just one day, that's all I ask, is that such a difficult task?
Just one day, just one day.

The damage is done, all the words have been said,
now I am free but it feels more like I'm dead.
The fairytale is over and I'm wide awake,
wondering at the decisions we make.
Does one really lose and the other win, only to do it all over again? Again.

Would you love me one more time, could you love me one more time.
One more time, that's all I ask, is that such a difficult task?
One more time, one more time.

Silent withdrawal to a world of resignation
The last straw jolted me from stagnation
Brush away the cobwebs of old familiar ways
To unearth the love once reflected on her face.

Caught off guard, I made a few mistakes
I will reach her once again, no matter what it takes.

A thick skin to protect and weather
the storm that rumbled before she was born.
Offer upon offer will seep through the blues
Trust that one will surface, too good to refuse

Caught off guard, I made a few mistakes
I will reach her once again, no matter what it takes.

The foundation has crumbled a bit at the edge
Still to hold the bird perched upon the ledge
Ready to fly, yet seeking a home
Where she feels loved, nurtured and less urge to roam.

Caught off guard, I made a few mistakes
I will reach her once again, no matter what it takes

How could it turn out for the best?
Both were fleeing their past.
It all looked good for a moment.
Now days and nights, they just pass.
You thought if you tried hard enough,
everything would work out just fine.
You spent the best years of your life
To realize it's not what you want.
Lift your face to the sky.
Seek comfort in the clouds as you cry.
Burdens flow away with the tears,
let go the suffering of years.

As you wander life's tightrope, there's a net of joy below.
Waiting though I know you won't fall, cause you know how to go.

So, here you stand without a clue,
trying to think it all through.
You feel so lost and alone,
you wish someone could tell you what to do.
You know, your soul strolls along with every step,
understands your every worry,
lets you pause to catch your breath,
is never in a hurry.
You mourn your mistakes and it's sad.
You glow in triumph and it's glad.
It's with you all the way,
every moment you have.

As you wander life's tightrope, there's a net of joy below.
Waiting though I know you won't fall, cause you know how to go.

So, listen to that voice deep inside.
Conjure up the feelings long denied.
Trust your soul, a faithful guide.
If you doubt, just remember how you've cried.
To escape through another
Can distract you for a while.
But it's time to move on,
when nothing more makes you smile.

As you wander life's tightrope, there's a net of joy below.
Waiting though I know you won't fall, cause you know how to go.

I want to grow old with you, and face the cold with you.
But I can't let her go, until I'm sure.
I like to have one on her way out as my new love's walking in.
Just like to keep my bed warm. Since when is that a sin?

You pledged to wish the best for me, yet begrudged the festivity.
Won't you meet me one more time, and we could be friends.

Sad widow fate has set you free.
How can I meet your demands?
You're reaching far and offering a hand.
But I want more. So much more.

I said I love you, like only once before.
But I won't see you until she's gone out that door.
You say I was so cold, pushing you away.
Can't you feel my heart is burning,
I want you more than I should say.

I can't be second in line
There just when you have the time.
I need more. So much more.

My friends warned me about you,
I was sure it would be different with me.
It took a while but I finally realized
For you I'm just another prize.
I know you're no good for me.
Still I want more. So much more.

It's all a game of strategy, it's all the same to me.
To shake or break a heart,
all that matters is that I call the shots.

For me, love was never a game.
Thoughts of you nearly driving me insane.
Even your caresses leave me out on a limb.
The future is dim. But I want more.
So much more. I want more.

I wish I could be normal
I wish I could be free
I wish I could pursue in peace
my own insanity.

It's not that I would hurt you
It's not that I'd be mean
I'd simply be the way I am no different than I seem.

I wish I could be normal
I wish I could be free
I wish I could pursue in peace
my own insanity.

I'm not like everybody else
and yet the more I hear
neither is anybody else
that for sure is clear.

I wish I could be normal
I wish I could be free
I wish I could pursue in peace
my own insanity.

It's not that I would hurt you
It's not that I'd be mean
I'd simply be the way I am
no different than I seem.

I wish I could be normal
I wish I could be free
I wish I could pursue in peace
my own insanity.

Everything is going wrong today.
Everything is going wrong today.

You slept late and the milk boiled over.
The rabbit chewed through the telephone wire.
You ought to get to work but your daughter's got the measles
And you're feeling pretty uneasy.

Everything is going wrong today.
Everything is going wrong today.

You forgot to make some calls and cancel plans.
There's a war going on and your friend might be there.
You're mad at your honey and he's just as mad at you.
You go up to your room and think of what to do.

Everything is going wrong today.
Everything is going wrong today.

But it's times like these when you least expect
Your life seems to be falling apart
Settle down and breathe cause maybe
It's just time for a new direction
These strange detours are part of the plan.

You're trying to move fast but it's all going slow
It's totally frustrating and you just don't know.
Where to go from here.
What you're doing here.

If you don't try to fight it and you learn to laugh
The bother will be cut in half.
Understand this is how it goes
And it becomes easier than you supposed.

Everything is going wrong today.
Everything is going wrong today.
Everything is going wrong today.

Searching for the words
That could tell you how I feel
I don't want to hurt you
Inflicting wounds that may not heal.

Silent humiliation
Longing for a different destination
You look at me with exasperation
And I seek refuge in my imagination.

We tried so hard to defy fate
Now let's face up, why should we wait?
Nothing's changed in this complicated dance
A moment's pain may give us both a new chance.
A chance.

We've done our best to defend
This love gone wrong that time won't mend
In my heart I comprehend
That I can't live in "let's pretend".

Floating adrift on a sinking ship
Bailing when other would've long since left
Let's jump as long as we can still swim
It's survival, not a sudden whim.

We tried so hard to defy fate
Now let's face up, why should we wait?
Nothing's changed in this complicated dance
A moment's pain may give us both a new chance.
A chance.

The little ones, they feel the tension
Not left untouched by our permanent dissension.
We might protect their innocence
By abating our own dissonance.

We tried so hard to defy fate
Now let's face up, why should we wait?
Nothing's changed in this complicated dance
A moment's pain may give us both a new chance.
A chance.

Let's give ourselves a chance.
We all deserve a chance.
A chance.

As many times as you build up the walls
They're sure to tumble down again
You've gone so far but that all slips your mind
You stumble once again and fall.

Didn't want to get your feet wet, didn't want to face a dare.
Didn't want to get your pure little hands full of dirt
Now you wish you were there.

Pick out the pieces of a puzzle never made
Create anew the moments as you choose
Chances never taken somehow seem to come again
The stakes have doubled, there is so much more to lose.

You look back, you look ahead,
You look to where you think you'd rather be instead.
You look back, you look ahead,
And you wonder, where the path might have led.

The stars once sensed a strong disparity
Saved up all their grace for years ahead
When you sorely needed of their charity
In desperation you were led.

To a castle hidden in the verdant hills
With a chapel to receive the silent vows
Not a word was spoken but the knight and princess knew
Their promise had no witness save the walls.

He who believes in destiny and the need to heed a call
Must admit to the necessity, that to rise again you first have to fall.

A day with you is a minute and eternity entwined.
Your love professed then he went on his way
Though you are always on his mind.
Look out the window to the wonderland
Beckoning to you to take the fall
For happy-ever-after there can be no guarantee
Yet suddenly no doubt is left at all.

He who believes in destiny and the need to heed a call
Must admit to the necessity, that to rise again you first have to fall.
to rise again you first have to fall
to rise again you first have to fall

One more departure, can't find the words.
Wake up in the morning to the happy sound of birds.
Chirping away, busy as can be,
While I'm stuck with feelings
Though the sun still shines on me.
This generation, going one by one,
just as we expected, now their work is done.

But this loss, the emptiness
all the things we never said.
So much I want to ask and tell you.
Now I can't 'cause you're dead.

One more departure, can't find the words
Wake up in the morning to the happy sound of birds.
Walk through the garden that you loved so well.
If I stand here long enough, maybe there's something the tree will tell.
Go to all the places, I know you'd like to be.
See your face on a passing man, is that a smile for me?

Now this loss, the emptiness
all the things we never said.
So much I want to ask and tell you.
Now I can't 'cause you're dead.

One more departure, I feel your hand in mine.
A tear is sliding down your cheek, as we stand in line.
And I can't help thinking of the inevitability
that someday one of us will go, and it could be me.
Who's left behind to wake up and feel the morning dew.
I don't want to sing the same words to you.

Don't mind the loss, the emptiness
but the things we never said.
So much I want to ask and tell you.
Then I can't when you're dead

One more departure, can't find the words.
Wake up in the morning to the happy sound of birds.
Chirping away, busy as can be,
while I'm stuck with feelings
though the sun still shines on me.
Yeah, I'm stuck with feelings, though the sun still shines on me.

Up again and down again and up again and down again and
up again and down again I go.
I'm happy then I'm sad, then I'm bothered then I'm glad,
now I'm wondering if maybe I'm just mad?

I think I've got the PMS blues,
and it's my mind I'm about to lose.
Yeah, I think I've got the PMS blues,
and it's my mind I'm about to lose.

I tell you to be quiet, then to tell me what you think
and then I want to be alone and then I don't.
Everything's too loud and I just want to hide away
and not come out again until it's gone.

I think I've got the PMS blues,
and it's my mind I'm about to lose.
Yeah, I think I've got the PMS blues,
and it's my mind I'm about to lose.

My world, it falls apart, one week later a new start
sure that everything will turn out for the best.
I've heard that women kill, that's an urge I've learned to still,
but I certainly have been put to the test.

I think I've got the PMS blues,
and it's my mind I'm about to lose.
Yeah, I think I've got the PMS blues,
and it's my mind I'm about to lose.

A bit more understanding and some sympathy as well,
and let's forget about the awful lthings I yell.
Up again and down again and up again and down again and
up again and down again I go.
I'm happy then I'm sad, then I'm bothered then I'm glad,
now I'm wondering if maybe I'm just mad? Mad!!

I was getting tired of singing the same old song
About all of the pain and everything that's gone wrong.
Then I heard another story from a certain someone
Who's spent years writhing in pain,
to whom great wrong had been done.

Sister, can you hear me? I know it's been rough.
Now you've awakened, and yet it's just as tough.

You told me of the horror, what happened to you as a child.
Blaming it all on yourself for being so bad and wild.
Pouring out big dark secrets long hidden in the depths of your soul.
Is it really any wonder you don't feel whole.
No one bothered to ask why you sweet child shunned affection
We were all too busy taking it as personal rejection.

Bursting after years of silence you told someone more than ever.
Who then betrayed your trust, so now you swear never.
Never again will you try, don't want to fall on your face.
But it will cost you your life to continue at this pace.

Now it's no surprise, you say you want to die.
Watching you walk away I pray you won't try.
You must realize alone. No one can convey
That you deserve the chance, it's worth the fight to stay.

And so I pray for you with a heavy heart
That you will see the light and that love will do it's part.

Hey land of the free home of the brave
Whatever happened to the promises you gave?
You're above all morals, restraint makes you pout,
You don't even try any more, to hide what you're about.

As a schoolgirl I once learned no taxation without representation.
We praised the outcasts and terrorists
Who tossed the tea and founded our nation.
Built upon truths we don't like to mention
Justified means for noble intention
Original folk banned to the reservation
In the name of representation.

We march until our feet ache, we yell until we're hoarse.
Tell me, what else will it take, to help you change your course?

As a young adult I scorned politics, wrote it off for liars and thieves
And power-hungry fools out for kicks, convinced of the strength of my naïve beliefs.
Perhaps relying too much on meditation, instead of focussing on the navigation.
Left it up to some delegation, now in shock at the state of the nation.

We march until our feet ache, we yell until we're hoarse.
Tell me, what else will it take, to help you change your course?

As a parent I am responsible, to make life somewhat comprehensible
To teach right and wrong, that loves makes us stronger
And that we can't take this mess any longer.

BUT HOW DO I EXPLAIN that
People can't vote if they were arrested, they can only become president.
With that in mind and a rigged election, we've got to do more for our protection.

We march until our feet ache, we yell until we're hoarse.
Tell me, what else will it take, to help us change our course?

Hey, land of the free, home of the brave.

When I was just a kid I heard that love was all we need
And the times they were gonna change.
Now I'm all grown up and things have gotten out of hand
There's a scary kind of tension in this land.

How do we raise our children
All they want is love and peace
We teach them to want more care less, eat junk and watch TV.
Just buy another toy we don't have time to fly a kite.
Though deep inside we tend to feel that something isn't right.

It's a strange situation, demanding more determination
To listen to the voice inside, calling loud and clear abide
To the law we've long denied.

I was so optimistic and so glad to be alive
It seemed that all we had to do was strive
To give your best and that's enough, be what you were born to be.
Lend a helping hand and care in this big family.
Learned to respect others and that litter bugs were bad
See the garbage piling up, makes me kind of sad.

It's a strange situation, demanding more determination
To listen to the voice inside, calling loud and clear abide
To the law we've long denied.

The global world's become a town
Connecting us in space
Could help us help the down and out
create a better place.

Work so hard to stay apace or try to get ahead
Sometimes I would be better off
To spend the day in bed.
Now I stare in wonder as I hear the broken glass
Just for fun he threw it down before he went to class.

It's a strange situation, demanding more determination
To listen to the voice inside, calling loud and clear abide
To the law we've long denied.

This ain't no paint by number picture, don't know how it's gonna look.
I'm always makin' changes, and I don't go by the book.

I've been going through the motions, cause I think I know the way
But the path's full of surprises over which I have no say.
So the road to life has opened up. The crossroads long gone by
The path is clear, though it's not paved, I'll make it if I try.

This ain't no paint by number picture, don't know how it's gonna look.
I'm always makin' changes, and I don't go by the book.

I don't want to paint by number or to know where it will end.
Want to wake from lifeless slumber, mystery in time suspend.

Just imagine for a moment there is no more need to wonder
No shadows, doubts or questions, no poor soul can further blunder.

To know ahead about the pit stops would be rather odd.
Are you sure you'd even want to still be travelling?
Wouldn't you rather dash certainty and try to play God -
Create the threads and colors, mix your own unravelling?

This ain't no paint by number picture, don't know how it's gonna look.
I'm always makin' changes, and I don't go by the book.
No paint by number picture, don't know how it's gonna look.
I'm always makin' changes, and I don't go by the book.

You often used to wonder how it might have been,
if you'd been a little stronger, a way back then.
There was a little secret that took all your time and money.
It was all that you needed, and you lost yourself in it, honey.
You had to have more and to do it every day,
when someone came too close, you pushed him right away.

You went through the motions of growing up and having kids.
And never really had a notion of what it is you actually did.
You had a man who loved you, but not the way you chose.
So you kept your heart well hidden, and never let him get too close.
You blamed it on that secret that you gave up years ago,
if that deserves the blame we'll never really know.

Well, that man, he finally left you, the kids are grown and gone as well.
You spend your days alone weeping, it's a sad, sad story that you tell.
It hadn't been the life you pictured and you'd spent so many years in grief,
clinging to the design you're so sure you were destined to weave.

And now you're six feet under, been there for many a day.
And here I sit and wonder, how a life can be spent so astray.
And here I sit and wonder, how a life can be spent so astray.

Once we stood in winter's garden, watching snowballs flying through the air
I was lost in a daze of yearning, never guessing you might care.
Are you lonely, you said, and I nodded my head, wishing for a brighter day.
You asked me to go out to my surprise. What fool would want to mess with me.
My initial lack of interest and aloofness became obsessed insanity.
I wanted something to remember, no relationship I'd try to keep.
Although we were never together, you've always haunted my sleep.

Countless days I have loved you. Countless more have I lost
Countless times pretended. Oh, at such a cost.

I wanted to prove I was over you. I wanted to show some strength
To salvage pride and save my face, I went to almost any length.
So how could you have guessed my feelings? How could you know I wanted more?
You'd waited to see if I was happy, little could we know what was in store.
The years had passed in a blur. Other lovers had come and gone
Now and then we'd met, but the timing was always wrong.
Then we crossed half the planet to meet, going out on our third date.
Then you said you'd always loved me, but somehow it was much too late.

Countless days I have loved you. Countless more have I lost
Countless times pretended. Oh, at such a cost.

How could you say you loved me, when I spent years dying inside?
Seeking to settle for another, but I couldn't, as hard as I tried.
Then you said you were so sorry for all the pain you'd ever caused
And I felt my heart grow warm with something I'd thought forever lost.
A love letter had once been ignored. I wanted you down on your knees
Ruefully I wrote you of my folly. You said "what kind of letters are these?"

Countless days I have loved you. Countless more have I lost
Countless times pretended. Oh, at such a cost.

No longer blurred by self-destruction, now I recognize the twists of fate
I thank the stars that you've come at last. Even if seems so very late.
It may have taken half a life-time before I could gaze into your eyes
To open the windows of my soul on this path of compromise.
Now eyes sparkle with delight, the mirror of a perfect day
A small slice of heaven on earth. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Now you say it seems too easy. No further hindrance shall win.
We melt in total communion. Feel the magic once again.

Countless days I have loved you. Countless more have I lost
Countless times pretended. Oh, at such a cost.

Like any other, I had so many dreams.
There was more to life I knew, than what it seemed.
Convinced that I could make my mark,
If I could only get out of the dark, find my way out of the dark.

Well, the years rolled by and another day
In the car driving home I awoke to my dismay
That the 20 years you need to grow
I'd chosen a different field to sow.
Diametrically opposed to the voice
Screaming inside to assert its choice.

Like any other, I still pursue my dreams
But I no longer pretend to think I have the means
Cause when I look real close into the mirror of my soul
I see another fool, like the kind I used to scorn,
Who you could only regret, for ever having been born.

Well, the years rolled by and another day
In the car driving home I awoke to my dismay
That the 20 years you need to grow
I'd chosen a different field to sow.
Diametrically opposed to the voice
Screaming inside to assert its choice.

Stop mocking the others and the poor little soul
With great aspirations, but stuck in a hole.
Put your illusions of grandeur in a package with care
And send it off with no return address.
Do what you need to do; don't judge if you digress.

You're life's still on, the last big bash still to come.
So, while you can, pursue your humble plan.
You've heard it so many times, but it didn't sink in,
Listen to your heart and you can start again,
And you can start again, and you can start again.

Well, the years rolled by…

Like any other, I had so many dreams,
There was more to life, I knew, than what it seemed.

So many times we've said the things, all we ever need to say
and we both know that things went wrong along the way and got us
stuck inside this game we learned to play.
Our paths once crossed, hesitation made me stay but now
we finally must go on, come what may.

So, when do I take the next step? When do I take the next step?
There is no further we can go, there's nothing more I need to know,
nothing the future's still to show, so when do I take the next step?

Another day, everything's the same, projected back as if we'd never said a word.
Moments filled with doubt and I ask myself what happened to the
understanding that I thought occurred.
Now aware despite the yearnings of my heart so many
years to your wishes I deferred and
now it's just as clear that I can't go on much longer with this
knowledge and the feelings it has stirred.

So, when do I take the next step? When do I take the next step?
There is no further we can go, there's nothing more I need to know.
Nothing the future's still to show, so when do I take the next step?

My waking moments and those when sleep evades are spent
hopelessly lost within my dreams.
Grab out to catch a piece of sanity in the picture of desired future schemes.
Sleepwalk through the motions of daily routine, I tell you nothing is at all the way it seems.
The tension builds, just want to scream. I feel I'm bursting at the seams.

So, when do I take the next step? When do I take the next step?
There's so much further I must go, there's so much more I need to know.
so much the future's still to show, and now it's time for me to go.
Now I must take the next step.

If you want to keep me
and have my body and my heart remain true.
There are a few little wishes.
Here's what I'd like you to do.

I want you to worship the ground that I walk on.
Treat me like my heart is made of porcelain,
but make love to me like I'm not.

I don't want all that money can buy
You don't even need to bring me flowers.
Just be there when I need you,
and wash my back in the shower.
The laundry basked may be overflowing.
The car is looking pretty dirty, too.
The living room may need a paint job,
but there are more important things for you to do.

Just worship the ground I walk on.
Treat me like my heart is made of porcelain.
But when you make love to me,
please remember that I'm not.

Tell me every morning that you love me.
Hug me, kiss me, hold me really tight.
Then when the day is over,
do it all again every night.
If you can grant these simple wishes,
you'll satisfy most of my desire.
And I know I can love you just as well,
to the bottom of your soul I so admire.

Just worship the ground I walk on.
Treat me like my heart is made of porcelain.
But when you make love to me,
please remember that I'm not.

Who am I to judge?
Who am I to judge?
Dig down deep to find compassion
Dependent on a generous mood
Twist and turn the truth
Eye for an eye and a tooth
Whatever side you're on
Whatever side you're on
How quickly can you fly into a rage
Despite the comforts on this wealthy stage
Reptile brain lashing out to survive
Though civilization claims to thrive

Who am I to blame?
Who am I to blame?
Fairytales didn't always end in relief
W.D. caught on to the need to believe
To deny twists of fate or the lack of justice
Does anyone still believe that
Honesty is the best policy
Like we learned in school
Surrounded by exceptions
That make the rule.

Who am I to judge?
Who am I to judge?
Who am I to blame?
Who am I to blame?
I cannot blame, I cannot judge,
For I know my heart, I play my part.

If you believe in me, there are wonders you are yet to see.
If you give me space to grow, there's so much more I want to know

Today it's my turn to experiment and learn
To explore a new world of energy unfurled
As a picture for a moment on the wall.

Seed of discovery was planted, unexpected chances granted.
Nurture me, but don't show the way. Give me advice, but let me play.
Let me stumble on and discover
So I can see with my own eyes, not through those of another.

Today it's my turn to experiment and learn
To explore a new world of energy unfurled
As a picture for a moment on the wall.

Give me pens and paper, paint and some brushes
To catch a glimpse of life as it rushes.
Efforts held in a frozen frame. No perception ever the same
In a picture for a moment on the wall.

I am a candle of circumstance. A gentle breeze will make me dance.
Might I find no air to breathe, or a stormy wind should heave
I may flicker but I won't go out. A caring hand will ease my doubt,
will shield me from the storm, and help me to go on.

Give me your hand when I'm scared of the dark
But set me free to fly like a lark.

Today it's my turn to experiment and learn
To explore a new world of energy unfurled
As a picture for a moment on the wall.
As a picture for a moment on the wall.

When we parted last summer you asked me why I was crying
And assured me you weren't dying, though we both knew you might be lying
… unintentionally, a bit of serendipity.

It was the last time I would see you, the last time we'd hug and kiss
The last look at your dear face, I knew I would miss
when your sojourn here would be through,
and we'd have to go on without you.

You left in the fall, when the leaves had turned, but were not yet falling.
Glowing in final splendour, as you followed the voice, the voice you heard calling
Time to go home, time to go home.
Time to see mother, time to see father,
time to go home to your motorcycle love,
you left on his birthday, and you'll ride up above.

Six generations were blessed by your presence,
A scattered village remains to treasure your remembrance.
All the letters and cards you sent for our birthdays
You had so much love and shared it in so many ways.
I can still hear your voice and envision your smile as you
Urge me to stop and smell the flowers for a while.

I didn't want you to go, yet couldn't wish that you remained
Knowing that your health would not be regained
Your dignity was sadly strained,
And your feistiness gradually waned.

You held on for a time, but couldn't do as you please.
Wrestled with fate, but then found your peace
Choosing to welcome the final release.

You left in the fall…

Time to go home, time to go home, time to go, time to go, time to go home.

I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin
I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin
I'm waitin for my life to begin
I'm waitin for it to make some sense
I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin

I've been waitin now for some 40-odd years
Had a lot of fun, seen a lot of tears
Missed out because of my irrational fears and
I'm still waitin
I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin
I'm waitin for the time to be right
I'm waitin in the dead of the night
Waitin or maybe it's stage fright.
I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin.

I'm waitin for my life to begin
I'm waitin for it to make some sense
I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin.
I'm watching opportunities fly
Don't really see them til they've gone by
I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin.

I'm waitin for them to put me down
Now I've found my little hole in the ground
Been waitin so long and wantin to be free
I guess this is just the place for me
I'm waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin, waitin
I've been waitin for my life to begin
Been waitin for it to make some sense
I guess I'll just keep on waitin'

How our paths have strayed
Through the decisions we have made,
Though we always meet again
Around some unexpected bend.
Yes we always meet again
Around some unexpected bend.

It was one score and four years ago today I gave you my word
A preppy little church with a goddess on the stage
And the best words of wisdom I ever heard.
We could have, would have, should have
But we took a little longer.
Had to reach a little further and each grow a little stronger.
Once I was sure I lost you, prayed and cried my self to sleep
Would have sold my soul if it would help to bring you back to me.

How our paths have strayed through the decisions we have made,
Yet we always meet again around some unexpected bend.
Yes we always meet again around some unexpected bend.

It's so transcendant and we know where we will end
Though we sometimes may not understand the means
I know you're there, wherever that may be
I know you care, I'd rather have you next to me.
Should fortune wink again, as it will I do believe
I have learned my lesson more than well
And I promise I will never ever leave.

How our paths have strayed…

While chatting on the internet one fine day
I found it rather striking what you had to say.
Soon after that, we met face to face
Fell in love, you moved in, we lived happily in sin.
I was glad my ex had been such a heel
Freeing me for something so real.

Oh, we could've been happy ever after, if you hadn't gone away.
We could've had more love and laughter,
If you'd only chose to stay. If you'd only chosen to stay,
if you'd only chosen to stay.

I knew you planned to leave
To end your earthly existence, despite my resistance.
I knew, though it would break my heart, I would understand why.
You were overwhelmed and full of guilt
Viewed all misfortune as your fault.
The new job was too much, you begged to be let go,
Instead were reassured, you'd soon acquire all you need to know.

Oh, we could've been happy ever after...

You put an end to things today, flew from my terrace
To a new realm, left me alone at the helm.
Though I knew you planned to leave,
I didn't think it would be today
Or I wouldn't have gone to work
Left you alone to end in such disarray.
Yet you were conscientious to the last
left the password to your computer, who to call and last wishes
Not wanting to cause unnecessary inconveniences.

Oh, we could've been happy ever after,...

There were times I was sure you didn't hear me
There were times I'd have sworn you weren't near me
Yet the closer I look, life becomes an open book
And I see your fingerprints so clearly.

In the depths of despair I'd write you a letter
Trusting that you could make me feel better
There were things I had to learn, past chapters I had to burn
To finally free me from feeling like a debtor.

The darkness has given way to light
Once dreamed prospects fill me with delight.
Now my prayers are simple thanks, as I stroll along the banks
Of the river flowing to the sea, the water rushing infinitely
Full of endless beckoning chances, poor heart take flight as my spirit dances.

I have asked you, pleaded, begged and made demands,
My behaviour can get quite out of hand.
Yet it never seems to phase you, disappoint or amaze you.
You simply steady me again til I can stand.

I pray I will remember when I'm lonely
I just need to call the one and only
A higher power than me, with the wisdom to see
That change will come to pass, but slowly.

The darkness has given way to light
Once dreamed prospects fill me with delight.
Now my prayers are simple thanks, as I stroll along the banks
Of the river flowing to the sea, the water rushing infinitely
Full of endless beckoning chances, poor heart take flight as my spirit dances.
My spirit dances.